Ringing in 2012 at 7 weeks!

How far along? 7 weeks

Size of baby: Blueberry

Number of pregnancy tests taken: 4

Total weight gain/loss: Too much holiday cheer, +3 lbs now

Pregnancy symptoms: Sleepy & queasy

Maternity clothes? Bought some this past weekend, but haven't worn any this week. The more and more queasy I get, the more I'm tempted.

Stretch marks? No

Sleep: All the time :)

Best moment this past week: Christmas! I found a little onsie that says, "Crawl the Line" and wrapped it up for the Husband with a guitar pick pick that says, "My Daddy Rocks"

Have you told family and friends: Almost everyone. Haven't announced to the Facebook world or told my work peeps. We are waiting to hear all looks good at our January doctor's appointment.

Miss Anything? Feeling like I'm not going to yack.

Movement: Nope

Food Cravings:  Nada

Anything making you queasy or sick: I do believe it has started, nothing particular, but I've had some queasy moments.

Have you started to show yet: Nope, still just feel bloated and a little pudgy.

Gender predictions: With my all-day morning sickness, I'm changing my guess to girl.

Labor sigs: No

Belly Button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or Moody: I say happy, husband says moody.

Weekly Wisdom: Sign up on a pregnancy website for weekly email updates - they give quick tid bits on what's going on with you and baby.

Looking forward to: Ringing in the new year and our first doctor appointment on the 5th, Baby C will make its photo debut!

Merry Christmas Eve at 6 weeks!

How far along? 6 weeks

Size of baby: Pea

Number of pregnancy tests taken: 4

Total weight gain/loss: to my surprise of a weekend away and holiday goodies, still only 2lbs

Pregnancy symptoms: Sleepy

Maternity clothes? I may have worn a pair of pants to work this past week, but it had more to do with not having done laundry over the weekend. I was paranoid all day someone was going to notice the elastic band at the top if I shifted just the wrong way in my chair.

Stretch marks? No

Sleep: All the time :)

Best moment this past week: Debating baby names with the Husband while we drove to ski. 

Have you told family and friends: Yes!

Miss Anything? Super hot showers

Movement: Nope

Food Cravings:  Nada

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope

Have you started to show yet: Nothing yet, just feel bloated all the time

Gender predictions: Boy

Labor sigs: No

Belly Button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or Moody: I say happy, husband says moody.

Weekly Wisdom: Go to bed early! 

Looking forward to: Spending Christmas with family

5 weeks

How far along? 5 weeks

Size of baby: Apple seed

Number of pregnancy tests taken: 4

Total weight gain/loss: holding steady at +2lbs

Pregnancy symptoms: Still the cramping, but nothing else

Maternity clothes? No, but I'm loving yoga pants 

Stretch marks? No

Sleep: It's all I want to do

Best moment this week: Ordered Roxie an "I'm the big sister" t-shirt and it came in, super cute.

Have you told family and friends: Still working on it

Miss Anything? Coffee, soda and Splenda still

Movement: Nope

Food Cravings: salty stuff

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope

Have you started to show yet: Nothing yet

Gender predictions: Boy

Labor sigs: No

Belly Button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or Moody: Happy

Weekly Wisdom: Take lots of naps!

Looking forward to:  A week full of family next week mixed with some snow and skiing.  

4 weeks 3 days

How far along? 4 weeks, 3 days

Size of baby: No bigger than a poppy seed

Number of pregnancy tests taken: 2

Total weight gain/loss: 2lbs - yikes! Need to get that under control

Maternity clothes? I have a closet full, but not wearing any

Pregnancy symptoms? Mild cramping, freakes me out, but according to all my Googling, is totally normal.

Stretch marks? No

Sleep: All is good, no complaints

Best moment this week: Telling our close family and friends the news

Have you told family and friends: Working on it

Miss Anything? Coffee, soda and Splenda

Movement: Nope

Food Cravings: Grape Jelly

Anything making you queasy or sick: Nope

Have you started to show yet: Nothing yet

Gender predictions: Boy

Labor sigs: No

Belly Button in or out: In

Wedding rings on or off: On

Happy or Moody: Happy

Weekly Wisdom: Live in the moment and soak up the joy. Dont worry about all that can go wrong.

Looking forward to: Going to the doctor for the official confirmation that all is well.

Can you keep a secret?

You would think after trying for TWO years to do something, when it finally happened you would feel excited and joyful, not scared and freaked out. I guess it's one of those things you'll never know until it actually happens.

My freak out moment occurred shortly after I took a pregnancy test. This had become so routine to me, each month I go through 2 or 3 test with hope and anticipation that we'd get a positive result.

This time it was Thursday, December 8 and 4 days before my missed period. I sprung for the digital tests this time which are great, no second guessing if you see a line or not, but you HAVE to wait the full three minutes. Not until every last second passes will the "pregnant" or "not pregnant" finally pop up.

I was home alone, Husband C was on his way home from work as I stood in the bathroom anxiously waiting for my results. I did some self-talk to reassure myself that even if it said I wasn't, I still could be, after all, it was very early to be taking the test. Only 52% accuracy this far out, good thing these are 3 to a box.

And just like that, I let out a scream when "pregnant" appeared. I then looked in the mirror at myself as to say, "Is this real?" and then immediately teared up. I looked back at the test and there in plain view, "Pregnant." I cried tears of joy and that feeling of excitement and relief quickly turned into shock and fear. I kept thinking, "OMG, what now!?"

My next move was to find my cell phone and text Husband C a photo of the test, but thought better of it and waited to tell him in person. I did do a quick photo shoot of the test. I felt the needed to capture this monumental moment that has been two years in the making. Two long years of emotional ups and downs, testing, procedures, a surgery, fertility medicine, side effects, acupuncture, vitamin treatments (I love you B6!) and endless hours poring over research and results.

Next came the fun part of telling the hubby. Waiting until we were both home that evening was not an option and I didn't want to tell him over the phone. I decided to go into work late so I could surprise him when he got home. He came in the door and I said, "Hey, can you keep a secret? We're pregnant!"

He had the funniest look on his face. It was a mix of disbelief, happiness and confusion that all came out in a smirk. He said, "Naah, really?" I showed him the pregnancy test and he then said, "I think I'm going to throw up," and we laughed about how our second reaction after hearing the news was complete fear.

I took some more tests over the next couple days (just to make sure!) and our secret didn't stay a secret too long. We decided to tell a few people who have been our support system through the infertility woes. It's super early, but we are too excited to not share the good news. It has been a blast breaking the news. From tears and screaming to burned gravy, the reactions have been priceless.